Here We Go......AGAIN!

Talking to my boyfriend yesterday, I realized that since we have been together I have gained lots of weight 3 separate times...when I met him I weighed 207 pounds (which is the smallest I've been in awhile) and I got comfortable and shot up to 270 (yikes)...then I decided to go on a diet, I did the Medifast diet, and I did very well and lost a lot of weight.  I think I got down to 210.  Then I got comfortable again and resorted back to my old habits and gained 50 pounds back!  So I was at 260 when I decided I wanted to do Medifast again.  I started out with Medifast, and ended up switching to the Atkins products, because they were cheaper and tasted better...and this time I got down to 210 again.  So I was feeling pretty damn good about myself.  Then again...I let myself go and gained 50 pounds AGAIN!!  And now here I am.  Disgusted with myself.  Knowing I am putting my body through HELL by this yo-yo cycle.  (I've done it (lost and gained 50+ pounds) probably 6 times since I had my kids).  I am so uncomfortable in my own skin.  I feel like everyone is looking at me and judging me and I just feel fat and disgusting.  :(

Moving forward... I have decided to join a gym with my boyfriend.  We signed a 1-year contract, and it's $75.00 a month so I better get my ass in gear and get my money's worth!  I have also re-downloaded the myfitnesspal app, and have been counting calories.  So I'm getting ready for big changes, taking baby steps.  I can't wait to jump in head-first and do this...and see results.  And hopefully feel accomplished and be happy with myself for once.  That's all I want, is to be happy with me.

Annoying?

 

So apparently it's annoying when people take pictures of their dinners and post them on Facebook? I must admit I get a little annoyed from time to time...but for the most part, I love my friends, and I love knowing what they're up to, even if it means what they made for dinner. And darnit, us women slaving in the kitchen is a BIG deal, and when something is impressive, we want to share it with the world! So I've decided to use this format to post food pictures... So if you're annoyed...move right along... :) I'll be posting more pics, watch out now!  Not all mine, I have to take pics when I'm impressed at a restaurant, too. (naturally...)

Here's an amazingly delicous dessert made by Anthony's, a chocolate molten lava cake...O.M.G. it was soooooo good!  Huh, Nancy?

 

I was hugely impressed with my cookin skills with this asain glazed chicken dish, inspired by skinnytaste.com.

Shrimp Yakisoba!!  (They don't sell these noodles at Costco anymore and they were sooooo good!)

Aebelskivers!!  Has anyone ever had these?  They're Denmark's version of pancakes or waffles...they fill them with applesauce and other things in Denmark. (they're hollow in the middle) but we fill them with buter and syrup and whipped cream....mmmmmmm, mouth watering?

Not the greatest pic, but homemade mini BBQ chicken pizza.  Our FAVORITE pizza.  These were gobbled up in the blink of an eye! :)

 

 

1st weekend of the year...

Had an okay weekend.  Had one kiddo who didn't feel too great.  The kids stayed home Friday evening while Jeremy and I went to the Art Walk in downtown Bellingham.  We were supporting our friend who is opening a new hair salon and art studio.  It's called The Hair Art Studio.  It's a great space, and I am very excited for our friends Dre and Jason as they begin this new venture in life!  Here's a pic of a few of us who attended:

 

On Saturday we took the kids on a mini nature walk at Whatcom Falls Park, which was nice to be out in the fresh air.  Then we splurged and went to Cold Stone Creamery and used a Groupon I've been holding onto forever...gotta love Groupon! :)

 

Sunday we took it easy...I ended up with a bad asthma attack, and was worthless for the rest of the day...  :(

 

Back to work yesterday...here's to another week...may it fly by!

 

Some pics from Whatcom Falls:

I love my family!!  <3

 

I resolve...

Ahhhh New Years Resolutions.  I'm feeling it this year.  So here goes...

You know, I think every year for the past 5 years I have lost 50 pounds and then gained 50 pounds. I have got to get my a$$ in gear and figure out SOMETHING that is going to work for me long term. Holy crap I am sick of this Yo-Yo dieting baloney!! I love food! Way too much!! I need help!!! I'm thinking hypnotherapy (I'm serious--don't laugh), Weight Watchers, and a gym membership! Duh, right? I swear if I don't figure out something soon I'm just gonna throw in the towel and keep eating and weigh 400 pounds. I'm sick of the constant battle with the mirror, the constant battle with comparing myself to other women. (I know, I shouldn't do that, but I don't know how NOT to!) So please send me vibrant thoughts, prayers, encouragement, ideas... I obviously know that I can lose weight...but apparently that's not my issue. It's wanting to keep it off bad enough to make it happen that I can't seem to grasp!! Anyhow...a new year always seems like a great time to start fresh. Wish me luck! ♥

I resolve to:

1.  Figure out some kind of permanent lifestyle eating change.  I have got to figure out something that is going to work for me LONG TERM.  NO MORE YO-YO-YO-YO-YO-YO diets!!!
2. Actually style my hair every once in awhile.
3. Spend more time with my family at home--no hiding in my room. 
4.  Get out and enjoy nature more.
5. Take LOTS of pictures!!
6.  Learn how to stick to a budget :)

I think that's pretty good for starters...more to come, I'm sure!!

HaHa!!!

Hey there's a Blogger app! I can blog from my phone! Suh-weeeet! Beware friends...this has the potential to get very annoying! :)

Where to begin?

So it's been a few years since I regularly blogged.  I deleted my Myspace account over a year ago, then kicked myself in the teeth because I realized that I lost my entire blog, which was over 200 posts!!  *sigh*

So for beginners, my wonderful daughters are growing older and more beautiful by the day.  Julia will be 15 next month. (going on 24)  Abi is holding strong at 12...going on 17. :)  They are both very involved in sports this year.  This past summer we moved to the Meridian school district, which is a smaller school...and the kids are rocking at sports!  As a freshman, Julia made the JV volleyball team, and did great.  She is currently playing basketball, and club volleyball on the side.  Abi started out with fastpitch, just finished with basketball, and starts volleyball at the end of this month.  So needless to say, we are very busy!!

The amazing man in my life is Jeremy.  We have been together for 3 1/2 years now.  He is the Peanut to my Butter, the Star to my Bucks, and all that cute sappy stuff.  He is an incredible guy and we've had a great 3 1/2 years and I'm looking forward to many, many more!

I am currently working for Bellingham Eye Physicians as an ophthalmic technician.  It's a great gig.  The job kind of fell in my lap, and I love it.  I've been here for almost 3 1/2 years and have no plans of going anywhere, ever.  I think I will work here until I retire. (or die, whichever comes first) :) 

Life is good...overwhelming at times...super stressful a lot of the time...but life would be boring without things that stress us out or overwhelm us, right?

I have grown a lot over the past few years.  I have found my voice, have grown a pair, and can honestly say I am a better person.  There have been a few big obstacles along the way...I'm sure there always will be something...just lingering around the corner...again, life would be boring without them!

So between kids, work, and boyfriend I am a very busy gal.  I wouldn't change a thing at the moment.  I am pretty darn content!

Some old photos:

 

Some newer photos:

 

 

Forgotten Blog

New Year's Resolution:  BLOG!!  TAKE PICTURES!!  Share and enjoy this year to the fullest.

Happy 2013 everyone!!